Jump for your life

I love the image of jumping onto the lifeboat from a sinking ship.  It really makes me feel like I’ve done just that by being part of this work. I feel ahead of the societal pack. That society out there doesn’t even know that their ship is sinking! I feel so fortunate to have just saved my life in order to help save others. This sounds so Christ like and I almost want to delete  this prior sentence but I’m not going to because during the call Greg said, “People need to become the Divine solution.” And for me to claim that I have the capability to save myself via the Divine and thus offer it to others who are willing…then why in the world would I erase that sentence?! In some way it would erase my power to help be the solution in transitioning from this old world, the sinking ship, into the new world, the lifeboat that saves your life!! So, in this space…I claim responsibility for my life…to go through all that I need to go through: all the crap, garbage, nonsense, pain, illusion and discomfort in order to show others that they can do it too. And on the other side of the ocean, far from the sinking ship, we find freedom from the pain we had to bear.

ALERT! Fantasy, A Destructive Power

Whatever topic that comes through during the Gospel call is so apropos to what is currently going on in my unconscious. It uncovers parts of me that I want to hide. This past week, uncovered, I was indulging in something that ultimately had the potential to destroy everything that I had created on this path. It honestly scared the shit out of me…that I was indulging in this fantasy world. It wasn’t even a fantasy with all the goods, I knew that it was a fantasy that would never even come close to where I am at now in life. It was a 10 million steps back fantasy. What the fuck! I was able to come clean and bring it to the surface and get support around this because of this call. I am so grateful to have been stopped in my tracks down the delusional and destructive path — to not waste my energy and power in the world of fantasy and illusion. Fantasy is a check out mechanism that will destroy my right to life. I am so thankful to have this come up and to recognize this dark power, hold it and turn it around with ultimate success in claiming, “I think I have a fantasy in this area. I think I’m believing in and investing in something that is sabotaging my growth and power. I need help and support!” With this alert…I am super heightened to my destructive fantasy ways.

Fantasy isn’t Real but Magic Is

Most of my inner work in The Process has been about letting go of Fantasy and embracing my Destiny.  The most significant Fantasy that has emerged over and over and over again has been the idea of the Sacred Union or “Beloved” relationship with a man, that I have imagined all of my life.  Of course because Fantasy is not real, it has NEVER been realized in my life in the way imagined.  This has been a significant area of suffering and pain because it has seemed possible, yet so far away.  My practice has therefore been to let go of this Fantasy and all associated Intentions, Dreams and Goals attached to this area of life and get to 0% attachment.  Not an easy thing to do with Fantasies!  However the more I let go, the more I realize the types of real relationships that I can have with men that are not based upon conditioned beliefs I received from society or my parents, but ones that are aligned with my Soul’s yearning for depth, connection, creation and growth.  Even though it is a challenging path to stick with this level of let go, I see the results and magic continuously unfolding along the way that tell me, YES you are on the Right Track and keep going!!

ROCK THE BOAT, ROCK THE WORLD

Greg talked about how society, through various systems, basically teaches us how to NOT rock the boat…how when rocking the boat disrupts the system. I fell into this trap of not rocking the boat and lived this as the current to my life. That is…. up until doing this work!

It started young of course. I remember when I was in 2nd grade I had asked my father if I could put a sign out on the front door of our house saying “NO SMOKING PLEASE.” This way, when my uncle and his family came that Sunday afternoon they would smoke outside and not in the house. My father said no. I had very strong feelings about smoking at the time, especially since my school just did a huge campaign about cigarettes and death (– it scared me), so I made the sign anyway and sneakingly put it on the front door. I came out from my room after the family had arrived to find them smoking outside by the poolside. I was ecstatic…”Wow,” I thought, “They listened to me, they’re smoking outside.” It felt so good, so powerful to be heard. After that feel good moment I had to myself…I was reprimanded for my actions and was sent to my room. I rocked the boat…. I disrupted the system. I learned to not do that again. That day a part of me, my power, shut down.

Today a part of me, my power, powered up and I have separated myself from a vessel that does not serve me. Thank god I am in this work; the ship that sails the truth and maintains steadfast speed by each individuals drive to authentically express themselves. Thank god to Greg for taking the helm and being the Captain to keep this collective in accord to the divine will. I’m ready to rock the boat in a way that will rock the world into another dimension!

Thank you Greg for your devoted navigation!

Community calls forth Authentic Individualism

This idea goes against the ideas I’ve believed about Community, where it appears everyone takes on group similarities, language, mannerisms and patterns.   What I have discovered through “The Process” Community however, is that when Community is formed Consciously, where unconscious patterns and behaviors can’t survive, then each Individual rises to the top in their own unique authentic expression while remaining connected and supported by the Community.  Through the fortune of being a member of “The Process” Community, I have come to experience high levels of accountability to be the best Individual I can be, not a copied replication others in the Community.  These are tough love standards, but thank God for them!  If it were up to me and living in an isolated, individual existence I wouldn’t be getting very far in my life and that would be a shame.  I feel like my life is progressing, I am finding my true nature, my true gifts and my true service on this planet and it feels incredible!

community

i remember greg speaking about community and how it must be protected against our silly little sabotaging patterns – that are unconscious and destructive. to learn how much we effect each other, it’s both comforting and annoying. speaking up, rocking the boat, ask questions, especially when something doesn’t feel right. something we aren’t taught.

I’ll admit, i don’t usually do that – in fact it’s really been bugging me to do it – especially in social situations and at work. for instance, i just had this experience – it didn’t feel appropriate but i just went along and even assisted in the vary action i was questioning – all simply because we were all having fun! this is my challenge, to stand up and feel uncomfortable, by speaking my truth.

i am very inspired to start now. it’s the only way forward….

i want to start taking notes during the sunday “gag” call!

Governance Required

There’s no other person that I would want to conduct the symphony than Greg. What he is able to bring to the symphony is divine and I will play my instrument in tune with others and the flow.

The fact that everyone is governed allows me to see the perspective that we all fall under someones guidance and lead…be it government, institutions, religious sects, food coop even! Everyone is governed/overlooked by someone.

I have found my guide in Greg and completely satisfied and fully trusting in his source of divine guidance. I feel free to explore my gifts and give them back in a way that every note that I contribute, loud or soft, is seen, heard and felt.

Right on with governance in it’s appropriate form!

Gratitude

The talk that Greg gave last Saturday really effected me. I felt moved beyond moved with the gift that he offered through his talk. Never have I heard such clarity and truth come through with such authority and integrity to back it up. The way that he talked about these new world structures really challenged me to hold levels of value that I have never experienced before. Now THAT’S Inspirational! How does he do it?! To quote the man himself, I’ll say, “Never suprised, always amazed.” It is totally heroic the way that Greg opens up his intuition, receives, and flows all in one swift action.  As he shared with the group some of the mechanics of this incredible technology that he has developed I felt as if I was getting that swift kick in the ego-ass that I was never offered growing up… I feel very honored and priveledged to be exposed to this information that this process circulates throughout the community and feel grateful for every precious moment of this last call. It encouraged and uplifted me into a new expression of service to the divine and to the overall system of the burgeoning new world.

running from pleasure and seeking out fears

this is my visual expression – the dessert (Joshua Tree)

to run from pleasure and seek out my fears, it sounds a bit sadistic, which i like. in fact i remember when my pleasure was full of danger, going closer and closer to destruction…. i have always been attracted to darkness…living on the edge…no fear!

I Know There’s an Answer (now I believe it)